The Memorial day weekend is gone. It was good having three days off, but it was kinda boring if you ask me. If it wasn't for Friday and Sunday being pretty good, I don't know what I would have done, except stay at home. *ugh* Well, David and I were supposed to meet Friday at 1pm, but we didn't end up meeting up until 5:30; his car broke down on his way down to Cincy for that meeting, and I had to go home at 1, after telling my Mom on my way out the house that morning that I was going to be home late. Luckily she left out around 2pm, and I had the house to myself for a few hours until he called me back and told me that he was on his way down here. It goes without saying, but I was happy to see him. We only see each other once a week for the time being, and its kinda hard. Things will be different in the summer, hopefully. I went with him to go and check out this place that was looking for a roomate. I was caught off guard that he introduced me as his girlfriend! Well, I'm not used to a lot of things I guess, but being introduced as his girlfriens, I can definately get used to! :) After that we went to chill in Fairview park, which is not far from campus, and then we went back to his place, got some Chinese take out, and just hung out until it was time for me to get back home to Cincy to my Mom (I love her to pieces, but I feel that she dosen't trust me all that much...). So that was my Friday.
Saturday was boring! All I did was sit at home waiting for my Aunt and Cousin to stop by, and they never did. Plus, it began to rain, so I couldn't even go anywhere! I had the opportunity to go to the Taste of Cincinnati with some friends, but I turned them down, twice! There was nothing else that I could have done about that, so basically I was stuck at home, and David was sitting at home for most of the evening too. Damn!
Sunday was better, a big improvement. I went to Northgate Mall with my cousins, and we had a ball! I was glad to see them, since I didn't get to hang with them on Saturday. I told them that I had a boyfriend and everything, and they were happy and supportive too. They were even shocked to find out how my Mother felt about the situation. Hopefully things will cool off in due time, ya know? But I had lots of fun hanging out with them, and this summer we may be able to hang out more like that, once I get my liscense. And speaking of my liscense, I got my temps yet again, but now I am looking for a driving school that I can afford to pay for along with tuition and my cell phone bill. Something in the next few weeks will be worked out. I just have to focus my energy on finals next week.
And as for Memorial Day, that day was boring too. My cousin and I bought a shirt alike and agreed to wear it on Monday, assuming that we would be together. I didn't see her until Tuesday evening! Well, technically on Monday, I was literally "All dressed up with nowhere to go!" But it's cool though, I'm just glad that my so-so weekend is over. I just want to get through finals next week! I have three on Tuesday and one on Thursday! If I can make it through next Tuesday, I will be fine! But I would like to escape from the city after finals are over! Road Trip is what I'm screaming!!! Anyway, I need to find something to eat, as well as catch up with my buddy Simi before leaving campus for the day. Until next time...

With the spring quarter finally winding down to the end, I am looking forward to summer! I have some assignments that are due for my Information Systems class on Friday and Tuesday, but since there is a three day weekend, I should be able to get that second assignment/extra credit done by the deadline without any excuses.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow most of all cuz I get to see my sweetie, David. Haven't seen him since last Friday, but we've been keeping in touch as usual via the phone and instant messenger. But it's gonna be hella cool when he moves down here during the summer, hopefully sometime during June or July. Right now, he is on a mission trying to find a place to stay. After all of the grief that my Mom has been giving me these days, it makes me wonder if I need to get my own space too. I wanted to move out my Junior year anyways, way before all the stuff happenend with my Dad passing and all the drama from the family that came along with that sadness. I'm unsure if I would feel right leaving my Mom in this big house. I guess she thinks now more than ever that I'm going to leave her and never come back. That's not the case, I think that I am ready for my own space now. I just don't want my Mom to suffer because of me wanting my own personal space, and get all of these ideas that I'm leaving and never coming back.

I was thinking that I could move when I gather up enough money. I'm going to give myself until the end of the year, just to see how things go. Besides, I will be working full time for the rest of the year, and basically not spending much time in class after Summer quarter is gone. Exactly, it's more like I won't be spending any time in class during Fall quarter, if I am successful in finding a co-op job for that period of time.
My dream place of work would be at a recording company or maybe at a radio station (if they are willing to pay, I know that some of the radio stations around Cincinnati only have positions where you earn college credit, I can use the college credit, don't get me wrong, but I'm looking to earn and save some money, ya know?). I'm trying to get on somebody's street team or something! To me, promoting music seems kinda fun and interesting all in the same. Well, I do have one place to contact in the city, even if they're not looking for a co-op student, maybe it can be something that I can do on the side while co-oping for some other company, or something to do on the weekends. Mainly I'm looking for the experience, to see if it is really for me, ya know? I thank my boo for the hookup for the promotions team. :) I have to give them a call very soon to see what's up. There's nothing wrong with following a dream, but then again, there is nothing wrong with having a back up plan either.

Like I mentioned earlier, the quarter is winding down. I have my last Spanish test tomorrow before the final exam on June 4th (which is my girl, Charla's birthday!). Also, I have an Information Systems ethics assignment due tomorrow by 5pm. All I have to do for that is edit and shorten the content, and then I am all set on that. Then there is the extra credit that is due on Tuesday, which I am about 45% in the process of finishing. If it wasn't for me recieving two 0's on my lab assignments, I wouldn't have to do this assignment. But I want to see how well I can do on it; I'm afraid that I won't do so well on the final. Sometimes, I just hate taking tests. And speaking of tests, I have to worry about my History final as well. As far as I can see, that is going to be my hardest exam out the four that I have to take. That course involves a lot of memorization and a lot of recopying of the unorganized notes that I take in class, on account of writing so damn fast. Essay exams aren't my favorite anyways. I think I am going to talk to the professor or the TA before June 4th about the best way to prepare for an essay exam. For now, I have to go and get started on studying for this Spanish test tomorrow. Hopefully, it shouldn't be too bad.

Buy something, would ya?

Just a few quirks! Try a lot of them! Every since I got home at around 3:30 am early sunday morning after that date that I had with David last Saturday, all hell broke loose! She bascially cussed him out when I got to the door- it was so embarassing! Then all this past week, I had to deal with my Mom saying "I don't like that you are dating him." Little did I know that it was due to him being white and I'm black. I never knew that she felt like that, I thought that she would be cool about it! I was shocked as hell! And having to deal with her bringin the subject up like every 10 minutes didn't make the situation better! Now I wish that I never told her that it was a date and not a group hangout on a Saturday night. I can't have her in my business like that if she chooses to act like its still 1962 or something. This fell on me like a sack of bricks on my shoulders, and boy, did it hurt. She even went to the extreme to say that he wasn't allowed to call the house anymore! Thank goodness that I got a cell phone plan now!

All I can do for right now is follow my heart. I have a good feeling about David, and my Mom will just have to deal with it if I ever decide to talk to her about him again. About two days ago, she told me that I didn't have to worry about getting her a present for Mother's Day, based on the fact that I "ruined" here week. I got her one anyway, and luckily, she accepted it and thanked me. I'm grateful for that. I guess for now, the situation is calm, but I can't back down from her like that, its like letting her win. I can't do that.

Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms out there.
RIP Ms. Christine. That's my neighbor from across the street. She just passed away overnight. I need to call my friend (which is her great-niece), I know that she needs to get away from the family for a mintue.

Here we go again....this time, its Cinco De Mayo, the fiftth of May. Party out of control, that's what happened near campus:
click here!

This has been the best weekend that I've had in a long, long time. I was overdue for one of those! My great weekend began with dropping that Microeconomics class Friday afternoon. Luckily the professor was cool about it, and there were no hard feelings, which I was extremely happy about. This was the second class that I dropped this year, and now I am down to 12 credit hours, the minimum to be considered a full time student. Now, I must focus on my other four classes, Spanish, History, Physics of Sound and Music, and the Principles of IS. I should have enough time now to get through those four classes without any hard struggle, due to Econ taking up a lot of my time. My goal is to improve my gpa this quarter, and by staying in MIcroecon, that wasn't going to happen. I talked to David later on in the evening to finalize our plans for our date Saturday. I was so nervous about going on my first date and all, due to the circumstances on how we met. I just wanted things to go smoothly.
And as for Saturday, things went smoothly! Smooth like buttah baby! :) I went to the hair salon to get my hair cut that morning. Boy, did I get it cut alright! I didn't realize that I had so many dead ends on my head! I pratically have been scalped! Well, not really, there is still some length in the front, but now with my new haircut, my hair should grow now. Not too long after I made it back from there, my girl Dal called saying that David called my cell phone that I let her borrow on friday. so I returned his call; we basically set 4pm as the time in which we would start our date. I wasn't nervous then, until I saw him around 3:45 going past my street by accident. I just got back from making a run with my Mom and Grandmom, and was opening the door to the house as I saw him drive past. When he called me like a minute after that, I hurried to change my clothes so he wouldn't wait on me that long. I got nervous right after that basically, knowing that I could't chicken out now.
After introducing him to my Mom and vice versa, we were on our way to Newport on the Levee. It was my first time going there, and it was so much fun to say the least! We got tickets to see Spider-Man, but I'll be honest, I really wasn't paying much attention to the movie, on the account of me being cold, and David put his arm around me! :) I'll probably go and see that movie again without him next time. We got the chance to talk a lot about everything it seems like, from prom to cars to dealing with college; we talked to each other like we've been friends for years. That's what made me so comfertable around him!
The rest of the evening went so well, but with a few flaws, such as being asked for out ID's because we were in the park at night. It wasn't like we were busted while doing sneaky things, we were just in the car, cuddling, enjoying the view, that's it. But the cops made me nervous and scared though. And I found out that my ID was at home, along with my keys that were attached to them. Doh!! I had my Social Security card though, thank goodness, and we got off with a warning. The date ended up going a little longer than each of us expected based on the fact that I had to find a way to get into the house! And my Mom wasn't at home! I called a few places to track her down, but finally caught up with her. I told her to meet me at the house. Eventually we made it back to my house, but my Mom was extremely worried and I didn't get any of her phone calls to my cell phone because I left it on silent from when we were in the movie theatre. I felt really bad. I ended up confessing to my Mom about what David and I interntions were for the evening, just to go on a date basically. I told her that it was a group thing, so that she wouldn't worry about me. I was unsure to how she would react to me going on a date with someone. But the air is cleared, and everything is fine. David and I are trying to make some plans to go to the mall Saturday to find some Mother's Day gifts for our Moms.
But for now, I have to get back to my studying, that is if I can stop daydreaming about yesterday. Like I said before, the date was better than my expectations, although there were the few quirks inbetween. If my first date was that fun, I am looking forward to more dates in the future!

The last few days have been very good, for the most part. Like I mentioned in the last entry, I was out in the neighborhood with my friends Friday and Sunday. All we did was clown around basically; that's what we do best. Sometimes I don't have all of the time in the world to hang out with my friends, but then again its not the end of the world either- that's what the weekends are for, to catch up with friends and have fun. And speaking of friends, I just started to talk to David again, the one who went to NKU. I haven't heard from him since January, well, that's because he tranfered to a community college in Dayton due to some personal reason, but will be transfering to UC in the fall. Such luck! Anyways, I gave him my phone number on Saturday, (or was it Friday?) and he gave me a call on Sunday. We talked for like 2 hours, but it seemed just like a few minutes. I was still hanging with my friends when he called my cell phone, and had to excuse myself from the room. I was excited that he called, but felt bad that I ditched my friends for a minute; luckily they understood. He just called out of the blue, and I explained that to him on the phone that night. And to my dismay, he did it again on Monday evening! And just my luck, he happened to be in Cincinnati, with his old roomate from NKU and asked if he could stop by. I agreed, but the entire time that I waited on him to show up, I was thinking that there was another plan that he had in mind. Pretty much to sum that up, I felt that he was suspect of something unsound. But he was true to his word though, and he came by to see me. The strange part was that the face-to-face meeting didn't last all that long than I thought it would. I was back home by 9, which is the time that wrestling comes on. I decided not to watch it though, I just felt weird about the situation at hand. I even called up my girl Cass Tuesday afternoon to discuss the situation! But my worries were cleared up Tuesday evening when I got to talk to David once again; he said that he got sick on his way back home after dropping off his friend back at NKU. He had to get someone to meet him when he was pratically a few minutes from home, due to the fact that he was feeling lightheaded while he was driving. He mentioned that he got sick on the way back home, like really sick, so I stopped worrying why he didn't call me back like he said that he would. I was thinking that he didn't want to speak to me anymore. But things are all good now, we're trying to make some actual plans to hang out Saturday afternoon downtown. I guess that you can call it a date per se, but I will, since I haven't been on one before! I'm already nervous, I don't know what for, since it is only Wednesday or whatever! But if or when our plans are finalized for Saturday, I just hope that we have a lot of fun. Awwww. :P
But I digress, as I sit here in the "nice lab" of CBA as I like to call it, with its charcoal black Dell pc's with 250MB zip drives and comfortable chairs. It's a good way to wind down after Microecon, especially after I got singled out today for talking while the professor was going blah, blah, blah and whatever. I'm really considering dropping the course, not based on being lightweight embarassed, but the fact that the lectures, the book and the notes are three different courses within themselves! I can't risk having my gpa drop anymore this year! It's just too risky! But I will go for now and finish up my Information Systems assignment, which seems more important than Microecon right about now.

Lisa "Left Eye" Lopez 1971-2002~~Gone too soon! |MTV|BET|

Once again, early Saturday morning, around 1 am, I tried to blog, and my pc had crashed for the umpteenth time. Great! I really need to get all of those mp3's off my hard drive, that probably has a lot to with my pc acting crazy sometimes. I was hanging out with some of myn friends last night walking around the neighborhood. I finally caught up with Sudan, I used to go to elementary school with him back in the day. He was trying to be all funny and say that I had a crush on him back in junior high. Yeah right! From what I recall, he wanted me! My girl Dal knew the deal too, he was frontin cuz his boys were around. But its cool though, I'll cut him up another day on that one, I was just happy to finally see him again.
It felt kinda weird hanging out in the neighborhood like that on a Friday night. I'm usually over my cousins's house way on the other side of town chillin or over my Grandmom's house. Maybe its because all my peoples are scattered around the city; Got friends that live nearby campus, and some that live like 10 minutes from the border to Indiana. They are everywhere! I guess with my location, I'm in the central location of the city, can pratically go anywhere that I want to, well with a car I can. I'm definately gonna get my liscense this summer- I can't live like this anymore!
It's almost 11am, and I really have no clue of what I'm doing today. Well, I'm trying to hook up with my cuz to get my ticket for the Usher concert that's coming here June 7th. That is going to be such a great day! It will be my last day of finals, plus it's a good time to kick off the summer with a concert the same night!

Today is not my day to blog. This is the third time that I've began on this entry after accidently erasing it twice! Oy vey!
I'm all worried and worked up about the History midterm that I have to take on Friday. Mostly because it involves an essay question that I am grateful that the professor has handed out two possible choices for the question ahead of time! I'm just not big on essays, they scare me.
I tried to study for an hour before wandering to sites on the net like Huny's and my friend June's site. Then I was chatting with this guy named Matt on AIM. I met him in person once, that was after we chatted with each other in a Yahoo chat room a few days prior. I'm not the one to usually do things like that, but it happened though. Every once in a blue moon we chat and usually run out of things to say within the first 10 minutes.
Anywho, today was the same old schedule. Went to Spanish at 9, work at 10, History at noon, and Microeconomics at 1. I actually payed attention in Microecon today, partly because my buddy Simi wasn't in class today. I'm worried about that class too- I just want to pass it! But if I have to withdraw from the class, so be it. It will only be the second or third course that I dropped this year. I rather have a "W" on my report card rather than an "F". I'm going to try my best and put in some more effort into econ and see how things go between now and the last withdrawl date, which is in late May.
Maybe a simple immediate solution to my worries right now is to take a break. I'm waiting for my Grandmother to come by to pick up some food that has to be taken out to one of my relative's houses. My Cousin Chantel lost her brother-in-law recently. It's just a normal thing to cook up some food; its like a symbol of appreciation, or to say that you care during such a difficult time.
I need to check my email real quick. I'm hoping that I got a reply from my Information Systems professor about the format of the class. On Tuesday a few of the students spoke up and mentioned about how the midterm last week didn't reflect what was in the lectures nor in the book. The "discussion" of sorts went on for pratically half of the class time. The tension was kinda thick after someone walked out the auditorium saying that they were going to file a complaint with the business college office. I hope that things are more calm in tomorrow's class.
Have to go for now; my Grandma just showed up.

10 days later. Last week, between Tuesday and Thursday was the busiest days that I had all quarter. Tuesday I had a midterm in Information Systems;Wednesday I had a test in Spanish and one in the Microeconomics class that I dread; and to top it off, I had a test in my Physics class Thursday morning. Physics is not all that bad, well, the Physics of sound and music anyway; it's not as bad as I thought it would be.
I could sit here and complain about how much I hate Monday's. Honestly I don't want to because I have nothing much to complain about. Well, maybe except for my aching arm muscle, due to me playing pool on Saturday. One of my uncles had a family get-together on Saturday for my little cousins who were in town for Spring Break to visit their Dad, which is my uncle. *not to sound confusing, but these are two uncles that I am speaking of.
Anyway, I was playing pool with my cuz who's 17; she told me earlier that day that I should make an audition tape for the Real World. Don't get me wrong, I've been watching the show since it first premiered on MTV, but never have I thought that I would be a good candidate for the show. She mentioned how silly I can be; not a bad quality to have for a reality tv show, I guess. I've been meaning to email my girl Cass about this one, she'll get a kick out of this one. During our senior year in high school, we talked about the Real World a lot, that and how many days that we had until graduation and all that good stuff.
Somehow I wandered off from blogging and ended up on Luminaire.com, the company that furnished the Real World Chicago house. That "S" shaped bookrack is the coolest item in the house that I've seen on the show! It's very unique!
As for Friday and Sunday, well Friday was cool, since I skipped econ (awww!), and Sunday was just a lazy day, since it rained off and on all afternoon. Luckily I was up at my Grandmother's house spending time with her.
Decent weekend. Now I'm back to the daily grind of spring quarter classes for now.

I am so freakishly tired today. Since I got home earlier this afternoon, I've been wondering around my house like a lost zombie. Maybe its because I took some allergy/sinus medicine earlier. I doubt it, because I've had a rough day, well partially. I got up this morning around 7:30 when I should have got up around 6am, since there was some Spanish homework that I had to finish up, and that class was at 9am. After hurrying to get freshened up and dressed, I left the house at 8:06, missing my bus by like a block. I had to walk up a little ways to catch another bus, in which I made it in time for. I needed the exercise, I am so lazy when it comes to exercising.


I'm not too enthused about relying on public transportation to get me back and fourth to campus everyday. My goal is to have my liscense and a decent car to drive by the summer. Hopefully.


My classes went fine, except for econ as always. I have no clue what is going on in that course, and I am pretty sure that the other 150-200 students don't either, unless they are freaking geniuses or something. I'm extremely worried about that class, becasue I really need to get my GPA up this quarter. I don't want to screw up my elegibility to co-op during fall quarter.


Work was cool, and history was too. After suffering through econ from 1-2:15 on a lovely friday afternoon, I was grateful to leave campus today. By the time I made it home I was beat down tired, but happy that I saw my girl Mary on the bus (and her friend, Dave) during my journey home.


After taking a long hot bath and eating some chinese food that I brought home, I was pretty content with my day. I don't think that I am going anywhere tonight. I need to rest up for the rest of the weekend. Got plenty of classwork and errands to keep me busy for a while.

Ooh, new layout! I thank Blog Skins for that! I don't have knowlesde of css yet, except for how to do a pop up screen, and that's about it. It's spring, and I've been long overdue for a new layout! One of these days when I have the time to learn how to format a layout, I will. But for now, enjoy this one!

Mondays suck. Plain and simple. My day went pretty well today. Had a quiz in Spanish, went to work for a little while, and actually spoke up in History during discussion (that's a big deal in my book!), and I saw some of my campus peoples. All was good today except for Econ as usual. Well, at least out first exam was pushed back in that class. Now I got a little more than a week to prepare. I cringe at the thought that I even have to take the Econ exam in the first place.

College is just a big sacrifice. I'm pretty sure that some people don't understand unless they have been through it themselves. It's tiring and time consuming, as well as stressful. Don't pay attention to the stereotypes, well, because they aren't true. Although there may be a few people trying to live out that sterotype of partying all the time. At least one time during their four years on a campus, they (whomever 'they' may be) has to open up a textbook at least once.

Time management is key to survivial I think, that and getting enough rest and have a decent diet. Eating chips, candy bars, and drinking pop all day just doesn't cut it; although it is hard not to resist with all of the vending machines every 3 feet. Yeah, that's an obvious exaggeration though; its still difficult regardless. In the end all of the small stuff doesn't matter when you get that diploma and have such an overwelming feeling of accomplishment. That's what I am looking forward to in 2004. or '05. Whenever I get finished.

I must go and watch my Monday distraction, wrestling! Whoooooo!
Between Rick Flair's Whoooooo! and Stone Cold Steve Austin's What?, they are in my opinion the best one-word catch phrases on WWF. But I digress. :P

Well, then again, I do have a little something to post that seems a little peculiar. I got this email through my college club account the other day:
Hello and how are you?

You seem to be pretty tight and I wanted to pass something by ya. I travel a lot and I really don`t have much time for a girlfriend or a serious one, but I do have needs and this might be a good thing. I am able to send you $2000 a month and sometimes more if we were able to see one another once or twice a month. No it`s not paying for sex let me explain: If I worked at McDonalds and gave my lady $50 out of my $180 a week check for hair, gas, car, nails or whatever it would be seen as a noble thing. No I don`t think your a gold digger or whore because I am not looking for one of those. I want a nice lady who is mature enough to handle this type of relationship, can keep out personal business to herself and don`t mind starting a love affair that could later lead to something serious. The money is just for fairness because I want you to be able to do nice things when I am not around. Well if your interested... we can discuss it more and here is my number and you can leave yours.

I'm being polite to the guy and to protect his pitiful identity by not showing his name, or the number that was left on the email. Trust me, there was a number, I forwarded the email to my girl up at Michigan. I did have the nerve to reply to him, this is what I said: no thanks. Plain and simple. Um, yea like I wanna just receive some $ from a complete stranger just for a little 'quality time'?! Do I look like a hooker? I'm pretty sure that I don't check the pics on my profile at College Club. Bearcats2005 is my screen name.

Damn, I know that I'm more worthy than some crazy ish like that!